bethb's Diaryland Diary

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if you can't stop thinking about me now, how come you couldn't seem to consider me then?

I'm taking advantage of the empty house to sort and toss and make and be loud.I've done a good bit of tossing and yet I haven't even scratched the surface with everything that needs to go.
I'm going to cook and launder and deliberate on something tonight. And taxes. yes. taxes.
i was so happy to see diana this morning for brunch (note: brunch at bar pilar is pretty...blah)Diana is one of those friends where we can just pick up where we left off and everything is fine. Which might mean that nothing changes, although it does in small (and some not small) ways.
Over the last few months i've heard from a lot of long-lost friends. Some (most) i've wanted to hear from. Most through the conveience of facebook, a few because they've googled themselves and found this.
this weekend i got a message via the other website all the kids were into 4 years ago that I received a message from someone i dated (the first one) 20 years ago. Now, we haven't spoken in 20 years. i haven't thought about him in probably almost as long, except for three weeks ago, i had a racy dream and he was in it and i woke up going "man, what a waste of a great dream". And then there he is.
he doesn't say anything big in the message (which is good because i have received the 'i'd be lying if i said i didn't think of you often' from someone that i would have probably killed for in college)he just said something like 'remembering simpler times' and i looked at his profile and i see the word "widower" which made me instantly soften. before the W i was about to hit 'delete' but i don't know what to do. I can't say 'nice to hear from you' because it's not. i can't say 'hope you're well' because he's obviously not. I can't say 'everything's great!' because it's all just ok.
maybe i should tell him if he's really looking for his old friends, he should go to fb since they're all there.

6:58 p.m. - 2009-03-15

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