bethb's Diaryland Diary

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clark sabine is awesome. i can't make myself say 'was'.

in seattle. it's 5:50am although my brain and computer think it's 8:55. we got into seattle after 2am their time. I'm tired but can't sleep.
my friend clark passed away tuesday night and i found out wednesday morning.
This is where this stupid blog/diary thing comes in handy- this is from the first time i met clark in 2001:
i think i made a new friend last night. clark was funny and nice. and i threw snow at him and he didn't throw any back. he thought it was kids from above the escalator platform. and i think i made him hold the quarters that i received as change from the metro card machine because they were really warm. i dunno. it's all kinda fuzzy. he offered to wait with me, but i told him i'd be fine. his band is playing against ann and ryan's on monday....
the warm quarter memory is a favorite memory of clark. and the fact that he hopped the turnstile to wait but i said no.
in short, clark was gorgeous, funny, crazy, brave, strange, wonderful and beautiful. He committed fully and whole heartedly to his action- evidenced by the numerous times he severely injured himself when his band would play on stage. i've seen him repel down the front of a glass-fronted venue, a flaming torch on his head. i've seen him pop out of a drop ceiling as his entrance. i've seen him play largely unclothed and throw himself on a pint glass and cut his back so severely that the show had to be stopped and clark taken to the hospital.
I've also seen him on the street, at parties, at clubs and received the biggest, most wonderful hugs. i've held hands and gossiped and confided,which admittedly was less in the last few years.

clark found a mole, high up on his thigh a few years ago and it was bad. really bad. aggressive treatment was in action (i remember clark saying "watch me nuts doc!") and for a while, it looked like stuff might be ok. it got really bad, really fast. really fast.
i can't imagine a world without a clark sabine. it's unfair that we have to. to never see his really spectacular face again.
to honor him, i want all of you to go to the dermatologist and have yourself screened.
and fully commit to life. it's what clark would have wanted.

8:55 a.m. - 2009-06-18

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