bethb's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- getting better all the time ok, so....i am feeling better. a friend said i was having 'survivor's guilt' of sorts. i'm also taking a daily multi-vitamin so i won't be the malnourished freak again. you know what's really great? everyone. for real. i was thinking this weekend as i was reading something in the post, and it had the word 'people' italisized (beck, i can't spell...we all know this) and i said the word out loud to myself. it's signifigant in so many ways to me, because firstly, it was the first word i uttered as a child. i had a puzzle that had figures on it, and when you lifted the piece by the little peg, it would have the word in english french and spanish.( i guess my parents had high aspirations for me once upon a time.) it also had a picture of a fence, and apple tree, a chicken coop, etc. but the piece i picked up always was people. that's how i learned the word. and i thought how nice it was that 'people' was my first word, and how nice it would be if people became my first word again in terms of priority. it seems like a lot of people are coming together...except for the people on the road who won't let you change lanes. they're still there and jerky as ever. but it is heartening to see people just being a little more gentle with each other. except for me on saturday night. i was unduly catty, but sometimes you have to be to make sad friends laugh and you don't really know what else to do... i love the new black cat. very very very swank. especially the back stage. bob last night was awesome and ted leo are just so......crushworthy to the nth degree. xoxo beth b. ps. i love jj and beck pps. i thinks i haves me a new crushboy 4:44 p.m. - 2001-09-24 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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