bethb's Diaryland Diary

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hot ozone

my friend sean is awesome. in fact, he might arguably be the best.
he really might be. i am lucky to have a friend like sean. there are days i'm lucky to have any friend at all.

My whole body kinda aches from painting roughly 10,000 square feet of walls this past week. oh, and also cause i don't take care of it, but this week i'm going to blame it on the painting and ladder climbing and fetching and stretching and plugging in and out of lights and switching bulbs and putting art up, taking art down.
I've kinda been hoodwinked into a situation and it's a situation i can't win no matter the outcome so i don't know what to do. i kinda stepped in and took control of a situation no one else was handling and now i'm the 'event designer'. it's a headache to be sure.

i saw Anvil:the story of Anvil this weekend. It was ok. I thought the guys had amazing spirit but i think it's probably a tough call for anyone who is working so hard on an endeavor (artistic, romantic, whatever) and you hit your failure saturation point and you have to decide what you want. Happiness, money, fame, fulfillment. How far and how long do you do not achieving what you want until you stop. and what happens when you do stop? do you just keep blindly hoping and believing that it's going to all happen for you? do you listen to your friends and family when they let you know it's not happening?

When i left the theatre it had rained. Not badly. it was drizzling a little. the city smells so good when it rains. I like that hot ozone smell.

6:38 p.m. - 2009-05-27

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