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saturday night's all right for leprosy
when do snap judgements cross the line into racisim?
i'm asking because after two hours of listening to charming stories last night, i'm waiting on a train platform leaning against a concrete pillar, nose in a graham greene book whose theme is leprosy (and really, what gal's motto isn't 'saturday night's all-right for leprosy"?) this guy comes up and leans on the pillar next to me and says 'hey' so low it barely registered so i keep reading. he walks around to the other side of the pillar and says 'how's it going?" at that point i raised my head but kept my eyes in the book and said 'fine thanks'. all i can really tell is he's very very tall and wearing all black and is probably over 45 years old. and then he says even more quietly 'do you have a minute?' and i said nope and walked away to the edge of the platform and kept reading and occassionaly glanced to my right and then the dude is right there.
i actually was a little frightened at that point.but then i thought 'well, actually, this is kinda bullshit. if he looked like kc i'd be delighted to talk to him'. not that i decided to start up a conversation. but when the train came i picked a seat where he wouldn't be able to sit near me. there was some staring during the train ride to my metro stop, but for the most part, i was able to spend it with my protagonist who only wants to live in a leper colony because he wants to be left alone.
i think sometimes i need to look at why i make decisions. was it because it was midnight and i was by myself and i had just had three gin and tonics?
Was it because of my generally distrusting nature?
did i do it because i'm never attracted to guys who like me and only seem to persue the ones that couldn't give two craps?
or did i walk away simply because my freak alarm went off in my head ( i mean, really....who approaches strangers after midnight on the metro when they're obviously engrossed in a book even if you don't know the book is largely about lepers?)
i'm meeting amanda in an hour to go look at the FR stage. i'm hoping it won't need colossal amounts of work, so keep your fingers crossed if you don't mind.
10:13 a.m. - 2006-04-30
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