bethb's Diaryland Diary

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the magic of tiny pumpkin. and being single is ok. just not according to cristen's doctor.

1) i just saw a commercial for a crappy classic rock radio station here with eugene mirman in it. he did his "i have a radio in my finger" bit. but i'm pretty sure if euge did have a radio in his finger, it would not play steve miller. he went to Hampshire college for fucks sake.
the worst part is i reached for my phone to call kc but i stopped myself which was good. although i hope he saw it.
carol asked about him on sunday when i went to her house- she said "how is kc?...now, what's your relationship? are you guys like best friends, or is it maybe something more?" and i told her i didn't think we were even friends at all anymore judging by the silence from him at this point.
i told her what happened and what i said and stuff and i dunno. just stuff. i felt kind of pathetic.
the worst part is i just want to hang out with him again. like today at work my ipod played this band with this girl who works at this bar and she's um....maybe kinda bitchy and he does this impression of her that makes me laugh.
actually, maybe it's better that we're not hanging out...the bad tendencies in me rose whenever he was around, so i don't know.
anyway, on to #2
2) i received an email from cristen K who has been my best friend since the first day of kindergarten. she was leaving her chiropracter (sp whatever) and he handed her an article upside down so she wouldn't begin to read it quite yet but it was some bullshit article about how being single and childless was linked to heart disease and depression and crap.
now, first of all, it should be noted that really, there's no reason that cristen should be single other than by choice, because unlike me, cristen is gorgeous. black wavy hair, olive-y skin, 5'7-ish, hazel-blue eyes, very very skinny, very very kind. cristen is beautiful, ok? i am not. i am a troll.
so to have this numb-nuts fakey doctor try to pawn off this stupid article on her is ridiculous.
if one more person tries to tell me how rewarding it is to have a child, i'm going to shove something preferably spiky in a hole preferably private.

3) ryan is playing music with a group of dudes that he's never played with. they're more todd's dudes. and it's so fucking good, it's totally killing me. i have no idea who this guitarist is, but i hope something comes of this.
also, tiny pumpkin's vine has started to die, so to prevent tiny pumpkin from rotting, i clipped it off the vine and took it inside. i also harvested the one watermelon that grew to about the size of a baby's butt before it started to crack (no pun intended....seriously) open. and i ate that and ryan said "you're eating the tiny watermelon?" but he was thinking tiny pumpkin and he said that he spent some time with tiny pumpkin today and held it when it was still on the vine. which made me really happy because i thought he thought my pumpkins were dumb.
which proves i think, just how truly magical tiny pumpkin is to move r. carr01l ne1son to hold a piece of nature.
but seriously? tiny pumpkin is really perfect. like picture book pumpkin perfect. it's just wee.
wee pumpkin.

9:09 p.m. - 2006-09-21

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