bethb's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- look ma! no cavities! look ma! no cavities! although i feel like for being sans dentist for a year and a half, there should have been a more intensive cleaning. maybe i'll just ignore the voice in my head, and hope for the best. also- since i don't have expesive dental things going on, i am going to get a hair cut. a real hair cut, not just "yeah, what the fuck, there's a hair cuttery in the parking lot of my grocery store" haircut. although, i have to say, leon is probably the best hair-cutter i'ev been to in three years. also also also there's the jonathan richman show tonight and now i'm talking myself out of it! what the fuck?!?!?!? i need to go! i should go! i just know i'll either leave that show skipping or deeper in this funk that's settled on me two weeks ago and hasn't left. also also also also- do you guys believe there's someone for everyone? alicia (hi alicia!) and i and jeffrey were talking about this last night, and while yes, i too have seen evidence of that, and could tick off about 5 couples (tick as in list, not as in piss off) right now who fully illustrate that "my-god-if-he-found-someone-there's-hope-for-me" principle, but honestly...i just know. i don't think i get anyone. i really really don't. and the weird thing is, i've known it for a long time. like since i was 14. i've never felt that 'need to connect' feeling, or if i have felt that 'wow- this person really gets me' they move to somewhere (england. australia. los angeles) prohibitive or stay somewhere (pittsburgh) where i don't want to be, thus squelching any 'well.....maybe' possibilities. i mean, for crying out loud, the last 'date' i went on was over a year ago, and it was set up by a friend of a friend, and the only reason i went was to see how this girl, who i really didn't know very well, only that she's slept with two of my good guy friends, percieved me. and how she percieved me was a third year freshman living in his parents basment and playing drums in some crap cover band. and quite frankly, if that's not enough to make somebody loose intrest, i don't know what is. 9:56 a.m. - 2002-02-20 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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